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This Protocol is Not For Sale; But it’s Not Free Either
Hey there!
♡ I want to start by thanking all of you who have been so incredibly supportive this week! I was speechless when I logged on earlier to find all the new subscribers, messages in my inbox and the heartfelt comments on my last note—the darkness and I have always been very close, but sometimes those reminders to look toward the light are much needed and deeply appreciated ♡
“Sometimes the only thing that’s left to do is to take the next breath” - My Bestie
Thank you all for taking that breath with me!
If you’re new here, I’m so glad you’ve arrived. If you’ve been with me for a while and noticed some posts vanished, don’t worry—it’s not a glitch. It was intentional, and I’d love to explain why.
This space, Matters of Substance, has a clear purpose. I’ve been sharing my raw, real-time journey with chronic IV meth use—body, brain, and spirit. It’s unfiltered, unpolished, and real: a story of survival, pieced together through peptides, journal entries, and hard insights. But some of what I’ve shared was too precious to leave fully exposed, at least not without care and protection.
That’s why I’ve pulled the essays and the full protocol breakdown from public view. Not out of shame—never that—but because this work is valuable. It’s effective. And in a world where powerful tools can be scooped up, watered down, and repackaged into soulless, high-priced rehab programs, I want to safeguard what we’ve built here together.
The protocol isn’t gone. It’s just held a little closer now, shared with intention.
What This Newsletter Is
A live recovery journal, capturing the messy and the miraculous
A radical lab for harm reduction, narcofeminism, and DIY survival
A space for experimental science, emotional honesty, and spiritual resilience
An archive of what works, even when the system doesn’t
What You’ll Find Going Forward
Protocol Series — Short, focused posts unpacking my PAWS recovery process
Lab Notes — Updates on peptides, supplement insights, and recovery hacks
Journal of Recovery — Personal entries, shared every other day
Dope Support Announcements — Updates for our biweekly Zoom group
Donation Calls — Because this labour of love deserves support
Want the Full Protocol?
I’m sharing it via PDF, upon request, for readers who choose to support this work. Here’s how:
Make a donation from as little as $5 via YouPay
Email or DM me with your request
I’ll send you the latest version, along with context, and add you to my early access list for future protocols, consults, and resources
It’s not paywalled. It’s protected.
It’s not proprietary. It’s personal.
If you’re here to extract or skim, this might not be your space. But if you’re here to support, learn, or heal alongside me, I’m truly grateful you’ve found your way.
💌 Support This Work
If what I write helps you survive, recover, or feel slightly less alone... consider donating. I can’t accept Substack subscriptions (thanks, global capitalism), but you can support me via YouPay:
👉 Donate to The Dope Doula on YouPay
Your donation helps me stay housed, care for my child, and continue developing a radical recovery protocol I believe could change the game for long-term meth users. It’s literally how I stay alive and keep writing this.
We rise by lifting each other in the middle of the mess.
Dope Support is a biweekly online gathering for people navigating substance use, recovery, harm reduction, or just the weirdness of staying alive. Our core values are empathy, autonomy, and mutual respect. We don’t enforce abstinence, push advice, or judge worth.
We don’t fix or diagnose. Instead, we offer a brave space for honesty, vulnerability, and community. Your story is yours to share—or not. We respect your boundaries, triggers, and choices.
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You’re welcome here.
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