Just FYI. I can't understand why i can't just get the phone to post my comments correctly. It's like that force is taking it all personal. Here i thought it was just my weird neighbors.
I just wrote all this great stuff about how proud I am of you to continue to hold on for that amazing beastie boy and most importantly, yourself. I am inspired by you dear. You have held on for 11 months while I can barely scrap together 1 month. Unfortunately, I convinced myself of some Unfortunate bullshit and for that I'm sorry. As far as him, I don't envy your situation at all. Not at all. I also don't think that those tactics he employs are progress.. sounds more like feeding ego and proclivities that leave you going... what the fuck!? I think us women should support each other more. There is a song that I loved at 14 and still love to this day. It's called Juggernaut by Clutch. I think it's about... well you tell me who it makes you think of:
Thank you Sarah. I was reading some of your essays the other day. Made me so nostalgic. I spent a good amount of time in Ocean View after a skollie broke into my car and stole my sound system. I went into OV to look for him and found the gent he sold it to. A very intimidating gangster-type, but he returned my sound system. So I agreed to come by and collect his two daughters and their friends once or twice a week and then us gals would go to Kommetjie beach for the day. Some of my favourite memories are from your hood. :)
What WAS up with that Sleep Token album anyway? I was meh on them to begin with and then when my brother played that one I went to bleh...
As for the rest, it just sounds cheesy but I do believe eventually light will have the last word over darkness, one way or another. So I guess all you can do is try to hang on.
I know, right? But to be fair, I suppose topping “Take me back to Eden” is practically impossible.
Yeah, some thing's gotta give. In the meantime, I'm distracting myself with some solid research that requires a fair amount of math, which I suck at, so I don't really have capacity to spiral 😅
Just FYI. I can't understand why i can't just get the phone to post my comments correctly. It's like that force is taking it all personal. Here i thought it was just my weird neighbors.
I have the same problem when I use the mobile app. Sometimes my msgs and comments don't post/send. It annoys me beyond measure
I just wrote all this great stuff about how proud I am of you to continue to hold on for that amazing beastie boy and most importantly, yourself. I am inspired by you dear. You have held on for 11 months while I can barely scrap together 1 month. Unfortunately, I convinced myself of some Unfortunate bullshit and for that I'm sorry. As far as him, I don't envy your situation at all. Not at all. I also don't think that those tactics he employs are progress.. sounds more like feeding ego and proclivities that leave you going... what the fuck!? I think us women should support each other more. There is a song that I loved at 14 and still love to this day. It's called Juggernaut by Clutch. I think it's about... well you tell me who it makes you think of:
I have suffered
For your sins
But now is when
My fun begins
If I hit you,
Turn your cheek
You are righteous,
But you are weak
Orgy-Porgy, Ford and fun
Kiss the girls and make them One.
Boys at one with girls at peace;
Orgy-Porgy gives release.
American dream
Turns to dust
So give us a god
That does not rust
Points of light
Quickly fade
You are food
But you are saved
Juggernaut
This is it,
We've reached the border
This is it,
The New World Order.
If I die
Before I wake,
I pray the Order
My soul to take
Orgy-Porgy, Ford and fun
Kiss the girls and make them One.
Boys at one with girls at peace;
Orgy-Porgy gives release.
Again, you article this so poignantly. Thank you for sharing your perspective.
Thank you Sarah. I was reading some of your essays the other day. Made me so nostalgic. I spent a good amount of time in Ocean View after a skollie broke into my car and stole my sound system. I went into OV to look for him and found the gent he sold it to. A very intimidating gangster-type, but he returned my sound system. So I agreed to come by and collect his two daughters and their friends once or twice a week and then us gals would go to Kommetjie beach for the day. Some of my favourite memories are from your hood. :)
Love hearing that. It is such a special place. Thanks for sharing xx
What WAS up with that Sleep Token album anyway? I was meh on them to begin with and then when my brother played that one I went to bleh...
As for the rest, it just sounds cheesy but I do believe eventually light will have the last word over darkness, one way or another. So I guess all you can do is try to hang on.
I know, right? But to be fair, I suppose topping “Take me back to Eden” is practically impossible.
Yeah, some thing's gotta give. In the meantime, I'm distracting myself with some solid research that requires a fair amount of math, which I suck at, so I don't really have capacity to spiral 😅
❤️🫂